Thursday, May 31, 2007
New Cell Number
Love, Mer xx
Day 9, Master Cleanse
So far, I've lost about 11 pounds and 7 inches between my bust, waist, and hips. Most of my clothes aren't fitting, so I'm going to either have to buy a bunch of stuff, or do some serious alterations! This weekend, the POS is gathering to celebrate Kerry's conclusion of student teaching - we're all super proud of her! And that night will be the first day of being able to imbibe and eat, so I'm pretty jazzed. I think I should treat myself to a new dress!
Check out today's horoscope:
Instead of focusing so much on what would make you happier, spend some time thinking about what makes you unhappy -- whether it's the way a certain person treats you, your love handles or those dishes in the sink. Once you identify those targets, you can fix them -- and make yourself happier! So talk to that person, beef up your exercise routine and start cleaning up. Your happiness is in your hands.
That's great advice. I have communicated my thoughts and the unabashed truth to a certain someone that makes me unhappy, and hopefully that part of my life is put to rest now. I really, really hope so!
Hope everyone's doing well. Love, Mer
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
My Favorite Artist - Frida Kahlo
Looks like her work is going to be at the Museum of Fine Arts Palace for several months in Mexico City this summer, as it would have been Frida's 100th birthday this year. I wish I could go SO BADLY - it would be amazing to see over 350 of her original paintings in person...
But meanwhile, here are a few samples of her most famous paintings. Obviously, most of her works were self portraits - she was in a very serious accident which left her badly injured, and went through a great deal of trauma in her life. This was the way that she healed her heart - painting.
I hope you enjoy these pictures. Love, Mer
Weekend Update
Wow, what a journey it’s been to get through this master cleanse. I can’t believe I’m on Day Seven of the process… Some days have been better than others, I have to admit. And I also have to admit that I cheated just a little, bitty bit. Saturday I had a glass of wine with Suzie, who was in town for a wedding – we had a great glass of wine on the patio of Tower 23, overlooking the ocean and watching the beachgoers walking by. It was the best glass of wine EVER, but I paid the price with a pretty bad headache… And Sunday I had two beers at Prasad’s BARBECUE (read: torture party) to distract myself from the grilled cheeseburgers, homemade hummus and tabouleh, brownies, cookies… ok, I have to stop talking about that now.
In addition to seeing Suzie and attending Prasad’s BBQ, I took Baci went to Dog Beach and the dog park for the first time – he was so totally adorable. He’s so white and furry and left both places totally coated in mud/ dirt. He has no idea that he’s a foofoo designer dog… which is kind of cute.
Right now I’m having some herbal decaf passion tea; the diet says we can have herbal decaf mint tea, so I might be cheating a little bit, but I think I’m probably ok… It’s SO GOOD, though! Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Everything smells so good right now, I can only imagine that when I’m able to indulge again, food is going to taste unbelievably good.
On a hideously low note, my divorce finances have finally completely screwed me. I have gotten sued and my wages are being garnished for every penny of discretionary income I have. And this is just for ONE loan! Pretty soon you’re going to find me living in a cardboard box at the corner of Loser Street and Crap Avenue. Thanks Jason. You rock!
Sheesh, I may need to stay on this fast long term so I can afford to eat!!! Ai yi yi... Mer
Friday, May 25, 2007
Master Cleanse, Day THREE!
Hey, check out my horoscope today. Isn’t it promising? I hope it’s true!
You are definitely due for some major changes in your life soon, so you should start doing some preparation! Clear up some time in your schedule to accommodate unexpected plans, and make sure your passport is valid -- just in case. A recent kink in travel plans may take a while to clear up, and things might not work out exactly as you'd planned -- but the important thing is that you're still going to be able to go where you want to go, and you will go there in high style.
Anyway, regarding my cleanse, yesterday I was craving specific foods (I’m not going to mention, for fear of reigniting the flame!), but today I’m not really craving anything specific. I was feeling pretty queasy and light-headed this morning, and my salt flush took forever to work, so I’m thinking that perhaps some of the salt soaked into my system… I felt really crappy getting to work, and very achy and depressed. But now, a few hours later, I’m feeling much better – probably after having had some lemonade and tea.
After reading more about what happens to food while digesting it, I’m certainly starting to look more into Vegan, Vegetarian, and Raw Foods diets. Now, for those of you that know me – I’m from Texas, and grew up eating grilled meats, and I LOVE MEAT! But seriously, as of now, I have no desire to put my body through what happens when you digest it. So I think I’m going to start, at least, reducing the amount of meat I eat and figure out how to replace that protein with vegetarian alternatives as much as possible. Don’t get me wrong – I’ll still want to chomp down a steak here and there, but I’m going to start approaching my health differently.
So it’s a three day weekend, and one known for great barbecues, parties, and having a good time. Is it possible to have a good time without food and drinks? I guess I’m about to find out! I’m planning to keep myself HIGHLY occupied this weekend – Shayne and I are having a Grey’s Anatomy marathon tonight and probably Sunday night, tomorrow I’m planning to see Suzie (Baci’s godmother), who’s in town for a wedding, and we’re getting a cheapo pedicures. Saturday afternoon is Dog Beach with Baci ball; probably a movie that night (I’m dying to see Shrek 3). And Sunday is a barbecue with my roommate and his friends – I’ll just pack tons of my lemonade. They say by day 4, it’s not that hard to resist food, so I will find out if that’s true on Sunday! Monday, I have absolutely no plans. If it’s nice, I’ll hit the pool with my cleanse buddy, Shayne! By the time I get back to work on Tuesday (and probably the next time I post), it'll be day SEVEN - woo hooo!
But I hope all of you have a lovely holiday weekend. Thanks for all your support and encouragement as I go through this crazy, but completely empowering cleansing process – it’s really been helpful!
Love, Mer
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Northern California
Master Cleanse, Day Two
I guess the part that’s surprised me the most with this program is that the hardest part is the change in routine, not the physical effects of the diet. What I mean is that it’s weird not getting my day started with a coffee and banana nut bread slice from Starbucks; leaving my office for a bit to relax in the food court during lunch; or having a glass of wine when I get home from work! The amount of time and effort I dedicate to eating and drinking is really frightening, and I found that out very, very quickly.
Last night I was at Trader Joe’s (to buy maple syrup) and wanted to treat myself – my first reaction was to buy myself a snack or a good bottle of wine… and it dawned on me that there are other ways to treat myself! I can treat myself with fresh flowers, some new hand lotion, a good book, or all kinds of things! I guess it’s just my natural inclination to treat myself with food… So I guess this whole process will change my relationship with food, at least for a while… I’m pretty jazzed about that!
Alright. Signing out for the day. Oh quick anecdote...
This morning I was watching the Today Show getting dressed. Bushy was speaking from the rose garden in regard to the poor U.S. soldier fished out of the Tigris River this morning after being ambushed and dumped there. He was talking about a new direction and gameplan he has in mind, and was asked by the press corps if it was his "Plan B", and he noted that since he's acting on guidance from James Baker and Lee Hamilton (an Iraq study group), it should be called "Plan BH"... Are you kidding me? He's making jokes about this messy, divisive war on national television at the breakfast hour? Ay yi yi... Is it 2008 yet??!!
Anyway, have a great day! Love, Mer
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Master Cleanse, Day One
Anyway, it's 3:00 on day one and I've made it through missing breakfast and lunch so far. Ordinarily, I'd be freaking out, but for some reason, I seem to be doing okay. Yes, I'm hungry, but it's nothing terrribly drastic! No crazy cravings yet... I'm really sleepy, though - probably from not fueling my body like usual. Can't wait to go home and take a nap...
This morning, I did do the salt water flush, which was interesting. Supposedly, the gravity of the salt water combination is the same as blood, so instead of soaking into the system, it just flushes right through. Weird to consider, but I definitely felt it working its way through my belly this morning... I read that some people flush things that they swallowed from childhood, like pennies and jewelry and such. I hope I find something cool! :) Otherwise, drinking this lemonade is okay today, but I can tell it's gonna get olllllllld...
I took my measurements this morning, which are highly confidential, but I do promise to get back to you guys in ten days and let you know how much girth I've lost in my bust, waist, and hips. I didn't weigh myself...
It's interesting - I have been planning to use the time I usually eat and drink to do something productive, like read, spend time on the phone with I miss, and reflect on my life and plans. That actually parallels what's going on in my body - the energy that's usually used to break down and digest food is being used to cleanse, purify, and heal my body. How cool is that?!
So my friend Shayne is doing this with me, which totally rocks! We're able to cheer each other past the cravings, hunger pangs, and probably... future desires to quit this process. I feel like I'm responsible for actually following through with this thing, since she's there to hold me accountable. So thanks, Shayne, for being my cleansing buddy! This should be a great experience for us - clean heads, clean bodies, clean hearts!
Wish us luck, everyone! Love, Mer
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Thoughts on Reality TV
First of all, I don't watch American Idol for the most part, but I did watch one night where the kid, Blake, who's duking it out for the title with Jordin, sang Imagine, by John Lennon, and it sounded like a high school talent show. Who's been voting for that guy? And apparently his real schtick is beatboxing? That may be cool for one song, but for an entire career? And I guess the Melinda girl was a really good singer, too, but she got voted off early... America is a strange place, no?
And let's discuss The Bachelor. Recently the casting people from ABC came to SD for a casting call, and I thought about attending the tryouts for about 5 seconds. And then I thought about it... what if the guy I'm seeing is dating other people right in front me? I wouldn't do well with that... ANYWAY, I was totally expecting Andy to pick Bevin - they seemed so in love, so natural together, and their energy was just electric!!! I was shocked when he chose Tessa... And when I think about it, I've been shocked every single time the Bachelor has chosen a fiancee. Does that mean I just think differently about relationships than everyone else on the planet? Is that why I'm divorced and unhappily single (but working on the happy part of singlehood...)? But then again, NONE of the Bachelors have worked out with their intended... so maybe I AM right! Either way, there's probably no correlation! :)
And lastly - my favorite, Dancing With the Stars. You might remember that my vote, pre-season, was for Joey Fatone, former N'SYNC star, and it still is! Their Last Dance, disco-themed number last night was TO DIE FOR. I was literally dancing in the living room along with Joey and Kym, with Jasmine and Baci circling me, wiggling, and barking. They loved it too!!! But anyway, I can't wait to watch the finals tonight while preparing my lemonade elixir that will be my meals for the next 10 days!
Well friends, have a great night! I'm off to the dentist... No whammies!
Love, Mer
Monday, May 21, 2007
A New Mer!
So it's time for something drastic, people. I've been researching body cleansing techniques, and I think I found one. It's called The Master Cleanse, or the lemonade diet. I found all the information I need on this website: http://www.lifetrainingonline.com/blog/lemonade-diet-recipe.htm The guy that writes Life Training Online experimented with the diet and found that he felt more energetic, an increased desire to eat healthy foods, clarity of thought, improved reflexes, a "lightness" of body and mind, and the return of the general excitement for life. WOW - I want those things too!! Oh yes, and he lost 8 pounds. Actually, it turns out that this is the program that Beyonce used to lose pounds for Dreamgirls - she lost 23 pounds in 10 days.
I'm going to try it - not for the purpose of losing weight, but to cleanse my body and get back on the right track. If I lose weight, then it'll be a bonus! I think I'm going to start Wednesday. Does anyone want to do it with me? If so, email me and we'll do it together.
Here's the basic premise of the diet:
For at least 10 days, drink around 10 servings/day of the following:
• 2 Tablespoons (1 fluid ounce) fresh-squeezed lemon or lime juice NOT BOTTLED JUICE!! (approx. ½ lemon),
• 2 Tablespoons (1 fluid ounce) organic Grade B maple syrup,
• 1/10 Teaspoon or more cayenne pepper (hot red pepper), and
• 1 Cup (8 fluid ounces) purified or spring water, NOT fluoridated water.
OR Take an empty gallon water jug and fill it with:
• 60 ounces of filtered water
• 12 Tablespoons of organic grade B maple syrup
• 12 Tablespoons of organic lemon juice
• 1/2 Teaspoon cayenne pepper powder
Shake it all up and you got your days’ serving!
Salt-Water Flush Recipe
Upon rising drink a mixture of:
• 2 level teaspoons of uniodized sea salt to a…
• quart of lukewarm water
Herbal Laxative Tea (You can find this at most grocery stores)
Each evening drink an herbal laxative tea to help with elimination - preferably right before bed.
That’s it! Do that for at least ten days for a complete intestinal cleanse. Apparently your tongue turns white as a result of the toxins being flushed from your body, and when your tongue gets pink and you're no longer passing solid stuff... you're clean!
Anyway, I've never done anything like this, and am challenging myself to do it. I tried fasting for Ramadan with KT once and lasted until lunch... so I HAVE to be dedicated and disciplined this time. WISH ME LUCK! And again, if anyone wants to do this with me, let me know! I'm starting Wednesday morning and ending the next Friday, June 1st.
I hope everyone has a great week! Love, Mer xx
Saturday, May 19, 2007
First Haircut
You might be sick of seeing my puppy, but I'm not yet! I promise he won't be so novel in the near future... but indulge me for now?
Love, Mer
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Slow Dancing in a Burning Room
This song, Slow Dancing in a Burning Room, has been going through my head all day. It deals with the difficulties of getting out of a relationship which you know is doomed - it's over, but you miss your friend, lover, and life together, and un-entwining your lives just totally sucks... Anyway, it's an amazingly beautiful, soulful breakup song. Click below to hear the song:
I hope you enjoy it. Love, Mer
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Finley at 14 Months
Monday, May 14, 2007
Happy birthday, Baci!
Love, Mommy
Friday, May 11, 2007
The Divorce Debacle
Anyway, I came across an interesting article today about the latest divorce trends. The divorce rate is the lowest that it's been since 1981 and experts are currently trying to determine the reasons. Divorces are particularly decreasing among couples who are highly educated - two incomes creates a more comfortable way of life, and therefore fewer stresses. It's interesting to consider that perhaps the old-school model of the stay-at-home mother and housewife perhaps put more stress on a family financially, and therefore more stress on a marriage. Who would have thought that working mothers could actually make for a healthier family? Pretty intriguing to consider...
Another trend which would be decreasing the divorce rate, according to this article, is that more and more couples are choosing to cohabitate without marrying - many times, even after having children. Obviously it's great that the divorce rate is dropping, but it's sad to think that perhaps our generation of adults could be jaded from watching our parents' marriages (not mine, actually - they've been married 38 years, but they do hate each other) and subsequently, families, fall apart? Could our generation be choosing to cohabitate out of fear? That's not good.
Anyway, if you're interested in hearing more, check out the article: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/18600304/
As for me? I still believe in love, marriage, and baby carriage. The eternal optimist in me won't let me believe otherwise... Now whether or not it happens for me is another story, but either way - I plan to live life to the fullest, expect and give the best, and enjoy the journey! And with that, I'm off to a wedding this weekend. :)
See ya Monday! Love, Mer
Thursday, May 10, 2007
I Heart Al Green
>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7U_OC5QmKo
Tired Of Being Alone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-Jcq8HOrU8
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Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Simple Pleasures
But anyway, one of my simplest pleasures is Clean Sheet Night - you know, the day you pull your sheets out of the dryer, smelling yummy like Downy softener, get them on the bed, and jump in to a sweet-smelling bastion of lethargy! LOVE LOVE LOVE CSN! I particularly enjoy watching TV for a while before wafting into a deep slumber on CSN...
Anyway, over the weekend, I bought... NEW SHEETS! They're solid white Egyptian cotton with a damask stripe in the material - very classic and crisp. It's been some time since I bought new ones, because I love my old ones so much, but it's time for those to retire... So this morning, I transfered my new sheets into the dryer after washing them last night, and all morning long I've been fantasizing about trying them out tonight. So not only is tonight Clean Sheet Night, but NEW Clean Sheet Night!!! Oooooooooooooooooohhh, I'm so excited!
Yes, even a high maintenance girl like me can enjoy simple pleasures... :)
Love, Mer
5/10/07: OMG, they're amazing!
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Deep Thoughts, By Mer
Love, Mer xx
How to Open Yourself to Your Life's Purpose
Are you doing what you love to do? Follow these 10 steps to discover your life's purpose and learn how to turn your passion into action!
The Oprah Winfrey Show: "What Should I Do with My Life?"
The one big question most of us ask ourselves is "What should I do with my life?" For most people, it's very difficult to answer. Use these simple suggestions from people who have successfully answered this question and are now living the life of their dreams. Be inspired to pursue your dreams and discover the impact you are meant to have on the world!
Ten Steps to Discovering Your Passion
1. Listen to your inner voice. It takes practice to hear your true desires. Your passion will often come as a whisper or serendipitous event that reminds you of what's important and what makes you happy.
2. Recognize crisis. Does your job feel like a grind? Are you spending your free time on something you love? Take an opportunity to appraise your happiness. One of the keys to living a purposeful life is seeing that you feel unfulfilled.
3. Dwell in possibilities. Your passions could lead you in a lot of different directions to find fulfillment. Explore your life and unearth all of the things that bring you joy.
4. Tune out the voice of the world. Make the strongest voice in your life your own. Finding your purpose could mean going against the advice of close friends and family. Take a leap of faith and trust in your dreams.
5. Decide what kind of person you want to be. Rather than concentrating on what you want to do, think in terms of what kind of person you want to be. Let that guide your choices.
6. Bring your heart to your work. It takes passion and courage to find a profession that you love. Spending the time to discover that job is time well spent—it could make all the difference in your life!
7. Trust transformation. Hard times are a natural part of life. Don't be afraid to change because of your experiences. Instead, let them shape and steer your course.
8. Have no regrets. According to the experts, it's easy to regret the time you've spent being unhappy or unfulfilled. Realize that during that time, you developed the skills you need to succeed!
9. Take the first step. Destiny can't help you until you are willing to step out of your comfort zone. Get prepared to make changes in your life … and start making them!
10. Be patient. Finding your life purpose won't happen overnight. In every life, there's a fast road and a slow road. Most of us take the slow road! Keep your commitment and take small steps to make it happen.
Monday, May 07, 2007
Vegas Update
Meanwhile, three major things were going on this past weekend in Vegas - the DeLaHoya fight, Cinco de Mayo, and the Kentucky Derby. It was a zoo there this weekend and pretty much everyone I know was there, except Mike and Nat, thank God, because they cared for my pee machine, Baci, while I was gone. GIGANTIC THANKS to them for watching my sweet furball!!! Sorry he ate your chair, Mike... :(
I didn't get my bet placed for the fight or the Derby, but it's a good thing I didn't, because I would have lost. I had my money on the horse Tiago, but he was nowhere near the front. And I would have gone with Oscar, too, so I guess I saved myself $20! In related news, my girlfriend Roni actually attended the Kentucky Derby this year and I promised her last week that I'm going with her next year. I can't wait!
So like I said, it's back to real life now. And back to OPERATION FATASS, everyone! The goal: 7 lb loss by June 1st to achieve my perfect weight. If you spy me eating crap I'm not supposed to, please feel free to snatch it from me and eat it yourself, or dispose of it any way you like! I've got spinning tonight at 6:00, so hopefully getting past that first big hurdle after taking a month or so off, will launch me into the mode. Wish me luck!
OK, have a great week, friends. Love, Mer
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Vegas Again, Baby!
I'll be back Saturday night! Wish me luck. :) Mer
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Today in The News
I just hope that now that the deadline is scrapped, that the troops that are serving there are afforded the tools, training, and supplies that they need to get things under control there and get home safely and SWIFTLY. 3,300 American soldiers have already perished in Iraq; I'm praying for a bipartisan solution that will ensure that number doesn't rise much higher.
Mer
New Art for Mer
This weekend at Artwalk, I found that the artist actually had a booth, and I was so excited to meet the man whose art I've displayed in my bathroom for several years and stimulated many conversations and compliments. I bought an original acrylic piece for my bedroom and am thrilled! It's my first REAL piece of art, complete with a certificate of authenticity. The picture to the right isn't the actual piece, but it's an example of Vico's work. The same small-headed, large bodied lady is the character in my new piece, but she's not a mermaid in my new piece. She's nude at her dressing table, fixing her hair. It's very sweet.
For more info about my fave local artist, check this out:
http://www.artwalkinfo.com/artists/vico.htm
Love, Mer